I played a tiny part during a key moment that arbitrarily and slightly
shifted the direction of a vast movement, a torrent that transformed the world for the worse.
Although it doesn't need to be, computing has been regressive, as has most advanced technology.
This is because it provides leverage for power and greed, which stimulates wanton accumulation, inequality, and destruction.
Many engineers notice this social problem, but they think "that's the way things are". And the technical work is typically
too tempting, too remunerative, and (more rarely) too interesting, to refuse.
From below, it's easy to observe the willful ignorance of 'our great captains of industry'.
They are completely indoctrinated and blinded by capitalist and technocratic ideology, and they're increasingly well-rewarded for
the initiatives they take in this framework. They don't see it this way, of course, but operationally, they are sociopaths.
But a little about me: I was hired to work at Intel headquarters in 1983. How to describe this place? A high-tech, anti-union pillar of
the United States' industrial hegemony. A blind, anti-human, profit-driven, immoral tyranny, like all large corporations.
I can't say enough bad things about the very existence of this category of human institution,
which is built on the belief that gathering power, achieving monopoly, and maintaining growth are a moral imperative,
and that the best approach is intense, wasteful competition, funded by a deceived public.
That wasn't really about me. So, I was recruited as an experienced UNIX guru, with microprocessor expertise, quick on my feet, with many ideas.
What was I to do at this HQ? Officially, my large remit was to technically support the corporate-wide migration to UNIX.
But, in reality I was there to take the UNIX hacking load off a young Pat Gelsinger -- an increasingly
important problem-solver, who needed time to get a VLSI engineering degree.
My hiring was approved by a sharp, and ultimately successful, insurgent group at Intel's
global headquarters in Santa Clara. Like many insurgents, they had supporters
among the oppressed at Intel, and some secret comrades up the management ladder. But,
ultimately, they had full establishment support when they were proving right. We
were absolutely certain that microprocessor engineering needed to be treated as
software engineering ... the p3 or 386 or 80386 or i386 in fact could not have been built without UNIX
and its software tools.
(This is indirectly self-referential, because Gelsinger's book on
the 80386 was the primary inspiration for the second major free OS based on unix (the first was BSD): Linux.
Here's an overhead presentation by Pat Gelsinger in early 1984 on UNIX,
or the version we were licensing: Amdahl's UTS, which I maintained on a single VM within
an IBM 3081. The presentation summarizes the material we collaborated on, in the preceding months).
This insurgency, and other tempests in a teapot, took place mostly on the top floor
of a small, extremely ugly, two-story building. The battles had world-changing consequences
only because of the vast monies and energies focused on this particular engine,
Intel, within the computer industry. The executives who founded Intel were not
influential because they were brilliant. They were clever when they wanted to be, but that's beside
the point. They were successful because they'd been seduced by 'the drive to win',
and took advantage of opportunities to grow their portfolios of technology, power,
and finance. They built armies to serve the establishment. They happily helped to
grow industry and empire, no matter the cost to the world. They sucked up the
brightest people and nature's precious resources for power and profit, justified
by convenient collective delusions of human progress. They weren't the only ones
deluded in this way, of course. The 20th and 21st centuries have been full of
unleashed, uninhibited tech daddies, a fate I managed to turn away from, but whose
temptations I felt quite distinctly. If one looked at life in a totally selfish light,
becoming a tech plutocrat seems like the only liberation available, in a world of
alienation produced by extreme capitalism which, at that point, had already been
extreme for a hundred years. Today, everyone is becoming aware that unchecked
financial and industrial growth has burned the planet, and impoverished nearly everyone.
Gordon Moore, famous for observing the exact pace of this destruction, was the CEO,
and he would stalk the floor restlessly. He'd regularly pull a mildly displeased
face at me, for purposefully not wearing my badge ... but he would not tell me
to wear it. At that point, he wasn't completely sure if badges were sufficiently
important to lose a good engineer over. And, after all, everyone knew me -- why would I need a badge?
He once sat down next to me in the cafeteria, and started chatting about someone
who had left intel recently, and how easily people moved from company to company,
and how that was his history too, and how that was simply 'the way of the valley'
(this was my first job south of San Francisco) -- a kind of rebellion, later to be
known as 'disruption'. I think he was trying to tacitly acknowledge
the value of my rebellion against the badges, but gently encourage me to wear one,
without saying so explicitly. After I left intel, this tolerance would
completely disappear.
Everyone at Intel was working unecessarily hard, and typically on busy-work, despite
the popular "work smarter, not harder" slogan. I found myself rebelling against
this obvious dissonance, and would take ever-longer lunch breaks offsite. The employees
suffocated in an impossibly bureaucratic, autocratic, and sterile office-political
atmosphere. It was managerial, hierarchical, irrational, primitive, and dull.
Not only were unions forbidden: co-operation, even for the good of the company,
needed to be approved -- and so became covert instead.
There was a patronizing, soul-sucking internal marketing campaign to teach everyone the
so-called 'Intel Culture', which seemed to mean that creativity, innovation,
opportunity, mutual aid, social responsibility, and quality-of-life were stifled
at every turn.
Some of my immediate co-workers agreed with that assessment: the secret rebel group.
But the engineering challenges were motivating, and consumed our attention. We enriched this new approach to
producing microprocessors, while stitching together computing power to do the work. Again, the 80386
wouldn't have been buildable without unix -- itself a covert project within AT&T, a different
tyrannical corporation -- as well as countless notions imported into electronic engineering
from the world of software. The work we decided to take on in this airless environment
(smoking was allowed, so this is a visceral memory for me) required
tireless, diligent reasoning, systems-level rationality, and relentless bug-killing.
Here's a typical email from one of the rebels: a 22-year-old Pat Gelsinger. I served
as a technical consultant for a corporate-wide migration of engineering to unix,
pushed by the rebels. I offered ideas, made observations, and debated,
alongside another 'intel culture' affront: a nauseatingly unproductive and
unsubtle divide-and-conquer mechanism promulgated by the executive management,
known as 'constructive confrontation'.
Which was only confrontation, and never constructive. Still, it wasn't hard for us
to win arguments, because we were borrowing successful software principles
and deploying them for the first time to complex chip design. All of that is laudable,
but most of my time at Intel was spent working with Gelsinger and others to cobble
together a custom heterogenous network of real and virtual unix machines to improve
our computing capacity and performance, to move the 386 or 'p3' project forward:
Although there were certainly brilliant people at Intel, the insanity of the organization
itself drove me crazy by osmosis. I resigned in the middle of an additional
storm of stupidity, this time from the outside, when IBM decided that 32-bit computers
(including the 386) were overpowered for desktop machines ... and so they wouldn't be
using the chip at all! Many inside and outside the company also saw no merit in the
microprocessor group's hard work on facilitating backwards-compatibility for software,
which we forcefully advocated, arguments I'd learned in part from portability
headaches that arose in the unix world (I was a C portability consultant prior to this job,
so I longed for compatible hardware advancements). These simple ideas were barely on
the radar of the establishment executives.
After over a year of these useless battles in the world's dullest environment,
I gave my notice. Desperate, Pat Gelsinger and three senior rebels took me out to lunch.
In the tradition of Intel's 'renegades' -- who left one startup to start another, and left
that one to start Intel -- they begged me to start a super-rational company, building 32-bit
machines with the 386 after it was released, machines which could run all known software in virtual mode --
and then hire the 386 engineers away from Intel! They were appealing to various discussions we had during
my time there, including the need to jettison corporate propaganda, and deprecate technologies that survived only because
they were proprietary. (The free software of the future was also part of this discussion.
Microsoft's importance was not yet secured, since its success was dependent on ties to IBM,
and the nepotism that landed Bill Gates, and his monopoly criminality, into that position.)
But, deep down, they just thought I'd be a fun CEO, because I don't believe that anyone
should indulge the fantasy that they can 'manage people'. Instead, people must work
together to manage the project, and if possible, decide what the project is.
Because that's what
happens in successful projects anyway. Management is deluded if they think otherwise.
It's better to clear away the chains of autocracy and get on with cooperative action.
But, I asked them: Why help Intel out of its stupor? Why take advantage of an obtuse IBM?
Why promulgate computing at all? It's a dirty business, making chips and machines, despite
its PR-cultivated post-industrial image. We were all fighting within the industry, but we weren't
fighting to stop its problems! Is that doing the right thing? We fought out of frustration, and a
sense of injustice, because we were at the bottom, and the people at the bottom know better
than the people at the top. We were drawn to the technical problem of forcing 'business people',
and even former engineers like our executives, to understand reality. But was that worthwhile?
It depends on the situation, of course, and we need to force open these internal
discussions. But I was so numb from Intel that I didn't feel anything in computing deserved
that commitment and activism.
I also told them that, based on the examples I'd seen, I would become a worse person if I became a CEO.
So I said no.
So, they all stayed at Intel, and fought. Compaq decided to seize the opportunity -- or risk --
on the 386. The rebel project I'd helped for over a year ultimately became the most influential
computer chip in history: the 80386, or i386, the microprocessor inspired by unix software practices.
And, after an exit and return, Pat Gelsinger is CEO of Intel now.